For the Love of Nageswari Amman, my Divine Mother

The guiding Shakti who has been spiritually raising me since the age of 12.

Recently, I was called to write by someone who has spiritually raised me as a divine mother figure since I was 12 years old. She has played an extremely important role in my life and my parents’ lives, and it is with her blessing that I am able to speak about her now.

My task was to write about spiritual experiences, poetry and whatever natural realisations come to me that felt suitable for sharing. Not every experience is permitted to be shared and discrimination is needed in knowing how much to share.

Despite this quite direct request, I only agreed to let myself share any of my experiences after a lot of soul searching with respect to purpose and intent.

Why write about this particular incident and is there a valuable message in here that might be helpful to others? Or does it serve as a simple nudge to open minds and hearts a little more?

These experiences were either quite obviously “mystical” in nature or subtle but powerful, unlocking hidden blockages or healing deep wounds to allow for further soul evolution.

In fact, sometimes the apparently ordinary incidents can only be fully appreciated by the person going through it, as the ultimate gift is an inner consciousness shift for that individual. These stories may not make the most interesting reads and it’s quite understandable why they get overlooked in a world that seeks excitement and sensation.

However, it is possible for someone attuned to that energy to perceive the transmission, blessing or guidance received by simply reading and absorbing the story. I’ve experienced this numerous times by digesting inspiring stories by both living and dead authors.

From personal experience though, I can honestly say that miracles are real…and quite often they are incredibly boring. This is how we miss them!

It is important to note though that these experiences do not make me special. Today I’m writing, tomorrow it will be someone else and it will all be to the same end. In the grand scheme of things, these are relatively low hanging fruits that are available for all of us, not just a select few. We just have to tap the tree with the right frequency.

So, dear reader, please know that I have no expectations of readership, or even for anyone to agree with or believe in anything I may write. In my humble opinion, there is little else more pointless and energy draining than debating to try and convince people of your views, especially online. My purpose is simply to offer, not proselytise.

Introducing Nageswari Amman: My Divine Mother

As I type this, she’s probably thinking “well, about time!”.

This is merely an introduction to a Being who is beyond words.

During school Summer holidays we would usually take extended trips to India to see my grandparents and other relatives. On one particular trip as a 12 year old, I remember being sat with my parents in front of this lady I had never seen before. I had no idea what we were doing in her small front room in Tambaram, Chennai and why she was smiling at me this much. She blessed me and told me a few things about my future which also didn’t make any sense to me then.

It turned out that she had been divinely blessed in communing with a form of the Divine Mother called Nageswari Amman, a Naga goddess. The goddess would speak to her and through her. She could see and communicate with the divine mother as casually as family members sitting together at the dining table.

This meeting sparked a lifelong relationship not just for me, but my parents as well. She assumed responsibility for all aspects of my life, being a visible and invisible guiding force through both my worldly and spiritual journeys.

She helped me through some of the lowest points of my life, especially during later years of schooling and university as well as being a steadfast pillar of support for my parents and I during numerous challenges in our family business. She has protected us from literal evil, saving our lives probably more times than she has divulged.

However, make no mistake, she is not always an easy-going, soft mother figure who coddles her children. The divine feminine, Shakti, is the immensely powerful creative force behind all of creation. This was her emanation we were dealing with. Her goal was primarily my balanced spiritual evolution, with all else being details. She would lovingly and relentlessly forge my path, manoeuvring me away from anything that no longer served the purpose, teaching me some of the most important lessons one can learn about divine love, patience and trustful surrender of the ego. One thing was clear, I was a wide open book to her. Even in private thoughts I could not evade her parenting!

She is the Mother. She is also the Father. Later on when I met my spiritual guru, Yogiraj Satgurunath Siddhanath, I realised that it is the same voice, the same loving hand that has been nurturing me since birth. This Essence simply shifts outer garb according to the need of the hour.

Kiruthika Rajeswaran